Weird Thoughts In My Head

Slitting my thighs

Hearing my families crys

Why, why, why

All I can do is cry

Over and over again

Usually over women

Control of the blade

Look at what I've made

A sad clown

He has a frown

Tears fall out

He can't shout

Fuck this shit

I'm done with it

Cutting that is

Help me God

I want to follow your rod

My path has been destructive 

I want to live

Just leave the knife alone

It no longer has a home

Help me kick this addiction

All it is is fiction

Love you all

Help each other if one falls

No more crawls

Kenny

Full of bravery 

No mind slavery

Happy to be alive

Through anything, he'll survive

Running scared

Never prepared

Never not shy

Always wants to die

Worthy of everything

Loves to sing

No one will stop him

Muscular, yet slim

Will never achieve anything

Looses in every ring

People push him away

Thinking he's fat everyday

Willing to help out anyone

Loves to be in the sun

Fights for the good

Burns bright wood

Lets nobody in

Always doing sin

Sits inside and mopes 

He has no hopes

Why does this happen to me

I'm powerful

Yet weak

Full of life

Think I'll never get a wife

Always on a winning streak

Looses every chance I get

Full of heart

Everything is dark

Just accept it Kenny

You're worth more than a penny

Life has it's ups and downs

Have a smile, no more frowns

I don't understand myself fully

Sometimes myself, I bully

It can all be achieved

Just have faith and believe 

Let me learn

Want to earn

A new life

Full of love

Pure as a dove

I'm just confused sometimes

So I write my rhymes

It helps me out

Onto the paper I shout

It's not rocket science

Stop this defiance

Love, love, love myself

Reach out my hand for help

I'm doing great right now

So don't think otherwise

My life is a surprise

I'll stop my selfish lies

No more cries

Let us be as one

Go have fun in the sun

Be full of joy

Explore every aspect 

Nothing I'll reject

So there it is

I get all twisted in my mind

It's hard to find

Myself

My purpose

I know I can do it

Reach for the stars

Stop being sealed in jars

Life ahhh

I just blahh

On the paper

No shapes

I'm just me

Let it be

Kenny

The Stank

Blended in with bushes and trees
Someone just farted
In an old creeky building
Someone done it
Fuck, it's all dry and muggy
God damn look at her ass
It's just perfectly round
I'm so horny girls
Come and get it
If you want 
I'll fuck you so sweetly
Candles lit
Roses on the bed
Red sheets
Black pillows
Lighted cinnamon candles
I lie you on the bed slowly
Start rubbing your body into relaxation
Kiss you on your neck
I make you quiver
We take off each others clothes
Get together
Very close
About to have sex
I fart

What Is This Thing

It's so hard to see

Past the light

There is a fright

Coming out to get you

Or me?

But it doesn't matter

It's just a harmless shadow

Counting on it's fingers

One, two, three

It slips through the window

Creeping slowly towards your back

You turn around

Just to see

Nothing

How can this be

I thought you just said he was after me

 But he is after you

It's just a simple test

Where will your eyes look

Cause that's where he won't appear

Always behind your head

He creeps by your bed

Sleeping in peace

He starts to strangle you

You start turning blue

NO, NO, NO

Leave me alone

You dial 911 on the phone

Looking back

He's gone

What is this?

B's

Happy, pretty bees 

All in their honeycomb trees

Making honey for me and you

This is what they love to do

Sting you on the damn nose

So you spray them with the hose

Just making them angry

They get hungry

For your skin on your back

They come to attack

You scream in pain as they come

Faster you better run

Oooooouuuuuuch!

The little shit gotch ya

Fuuuuu....

This little sting hurt

Now a little blood you squirt

All over a little buzz

You got scared

Tried to get them away

Now "shit" is what you say

The Son Is Gone

The sadness of Christ's death fills my worthless soul
I keep on digging in my deep, dark hole
Feeling like I'm on black ice
I have no control
Riptides crash off my lashes
Lashes on my back bleed from the whips of the wicked
Cries of the holy enter my blankless mind
Who dare destroy what I've created
Jesus was not cremated 
The Resurrection brought forth the light of the sun to the world
But there is still the evil kind
They can't seem to find the right path
They are all blind
Amongst them all, is evil pride
Songs of disaster consume their bankrupt souls
It's not peace that created this madness
They're from Satan's side
Blitzing into the offense of the holy
Hitting many off their feet to their knees
Fucking up for one second could make you loose your life
Paying too much attention gets you nowhere
What do I do now
I love my life, I swear
No one cares about my lashings
Fuck you too, you bastards
You always forget about my soul
Leaving me digging in my hole
Finally realizing I'm gone
You look for me after the hours passed
 I've dug myself six feet under
There is no son

Mass Destruction

So much noise, mental noise

A none stopping typewriter creates it

Filling my brain with insecurities

I scream in silence at my head

Thinking like it's the world against me

Defending myself every second

Creating mass destruction of the mind

It doesn't have to be like this

Alex Jensen

Warrior sent from God

He walks this earth with knowledge

Kindness of his heart is shared with others 

Picks up others when they are down

This man has a golden crown

Helps me through any part of life

Bbbbrrrt! It's our joke

Look at this hole on my pants

Ha ha ha, good times

He's as humble as a monk

12 inch sub in his Subaru's trunk

The past few memorable months I've gotten to know this warrior

Fights when it's right

He'll come for you, whether day or night

One of the best men I've ever met

Meet him if you haven't met him yet

I can trust him to be there

He'll treat anyone fair

God, thank you for putting this man on my path

He's a genuine humnan being

I respect him with all my soul

I can't explain how grateful I am for him

Floyd cracks me up

Your parents raised a good son

Dude, I fuckin love you bro

I want you to know I'm here for you 100%

I know you're a God sent

Let me know where I can help you

Rockin out in my car is what we'll do

Epic times are yet to come

I feel like crying out tears of joy

I have an amazing friend by my side

God loves you, so don't hide

DO YOU GET IT?

What did I get across to you

When we first met, did you expect

Something else

Like a rock and roll king

A sweet surfer dude

A hardcore skater

Well, those are close but not me

In my life, I am the king bee

I go around in this world peacefully

But if you get too close, my feelings you will see

"What in the hell is wrong with this crazy kid?"

I change like the seasons

Sometimes I rain tears of sadness

Other days, I can be as bright as the sun

I don't hold my feelings in

They show who I am

Can you understand this concept

If you meet me, you'll never forget

I am one of a kind

People like me you won't usually find

I care about you usually more than myself

Can I help

It's all out of love

But sometimes I feel evil

Like hitting a home run to your face

All mankind is a disgrace

I'm ok though

Do you feel my flow

I respect you, but sometimes I don't

You probably feel the same towards me

But it's ok, it's life

Do you understand me

JUST WISH I WAS DEAD

All alone

No one answers their phone

I just want a little acknowledgment

I feel as if I'm completely absent

 

I feel like nobody cares

Talking to me, no one dares

Even though they know I'm nice

It's supposedly to much advice

Does anybody see me

Or is everyone blind and can't see

I'm in an enormous amount of pain

I feel like I'm going insane

What is left to do in life

I'll never have a chance for a wife

Let alone a girlfriend

I feel like this is the end

Lately, I just want to let go

Stop acting in the terrible show

I feel like my writings are no good

I already burned out all the wood

 

My mind is in a swirl 

Sit in my bed in a curl

Does anyone understand

I'm the leader with no one in my band

Jealous of others relationships

I just sit her eating candy and chips

I'm very unhealthy at this point

I want to relapse, eat mushrooms and smoke a joint

 

 I didn't cut for 3 months, I was doing good

Then a week ago I fucked up, did what I would

To much is on my mind

A little peace I want to find

To anyone who reads my poem

If you have friends, show them

I just want out

My mind and body is in a drought 

I'm alone guys

I have lots of cry's

This one is asking for assistance 

No more rides in the ambulance

I feel like there's nothing to live for

I just want one more big score

But I know it would be wrong

This is my sad song

Fuck I don't know what's going down

I'm getting dragged down under by Pennywise The Clown

Not much more to be said

Just wish I was dead

My Valentines Day

My Valentines Day was awesome

I spent the night with a beautiful blossom

Filled with joy that's one of a kind

Another date with her I wouldn't mind

A little Italian restaurant, hidden in a neighborhood

Her eyes lit like firewood

I can't stop this grin from escaping

Our hearts are shaping

Laugh after laugh

My happiness is off the bar graph

Her smile just eats at me, in a good way

Our date was like a perfect play

The food was cooked to perfection

Tonight, there was a little affection

Waiting for two hours, we talked

In the cool night, we walked

Came to my house for a horror flick

Halloween was our pick

Sitting next to me she gets frightened

Her body tightened

I was there to protect her

I am the almighty sir

Ha ha just wanted to put that in

It's not a sin to want to win

I drove her home after

We had a lot of laughter 

Then I gave her a hug goodnight

Tonight was such a beautiful sight

To my date, thank you a ton

I had so much fun

I feel so good right now

A nice beautiful girl was how

What I'd Like

I have a question for you all

How long will it be before you fall

It's all just a matter of time

Piece's is my sign

Where will we be in 5 years

Hooked on drugs and on beers

I don't want it that way

This is what I'll say

How often do we help another out

I do my best to know what helping is about

It makes me feel good

I thing we all should

I'm in a confusing spot with women

But I know I can fall back on my men

Why do I cry over you

I'm living in my own blue

Always asking to hangout

It's always a shut out

Maybe it's just wrong timing

But I'm not smiling

When will I find one to have a good relationship

It seems like no one gives a shit

Except a friend named Alex

He helps me through my wrecks

One girl is what I want

There's no way I'd flaunt

I want her to want me too

 We could be the perfect two

I just sit depressed in bed

Getting all these terrible thoughts in my head

Could a girl please comfort me

Help me to learn how to live free

Well I've said what I'd like

I don't want to go see a psyche

Just a woman to cheer and comfort

I know it's hard to find this sort

I'm getting tired of finding the wrong ones

I'd like one with sexy buns

But also true to herself and others

To me she never bothers

Hope you too are doing ok

I love you all every single way

Hit me up if you need a helping hand

I'll get you out of that quicksand

A Helping Hand

Tears fall from his eyes

Helping him, no one even trys

All alone

He sits depressed at home

Will somebody help out this man

I know someone can

He needs it really bad

Watching him makes me sad

A little shove is all he needs

Grab him before he bleeds

Let him know that someone cares

He's used his flares

Is anybody listening

Half of you don't care and are just snickering 

All it would take is one person

Save him before he's finished and done

Maybe just a smile

Or stay awhile

Anything would benefit

He no longer wants to feel like shit

All I'm trying to say

Help another person today

It could change their lives

Make it so he strives

Help another person out

That's what this life's about

No use in just walking on by

Put out a hand, you know why

Card

Many a times he's been in my life
Football, wrestling, volleyball
Epic times at the well known Tanner Park
Walking the royal, noble Ace and the hyper Gypsy dogs


Talking during a warm cup of joe 
We relate
Knowing everything in life is how it's supposed to be
I feel comfort, happiness, and honored to be his friend


The time in Tanner Park
Chris, Alex, and I found a golden leaf
All alone, it needs a home
We found the tree of golden leaves 
Putting the treasure with it's partners


How could someone not like this man
Always helping people when he can
He has the look of a strapping young prince
First one in the deck, It's A Card


This kid is humble
With me against all others, he'd rumble
I know he has my back
I have his too


A Card, you know who you are
The love is nowhere far
Be happy with the place your in
Your life did just begin


Love you bro with all my heart
Always here if you need a helping hand
You're a fighter, never give up
God is with you, just look up

Live to Learn to Love Life

In Heaven everything is fine

Working on living

Living to learn

Learning to love

Life

 

The words that were said hurt

Then, they gave me affirmative inspiration

It's what I always wanted

I finally got a negative experience from one of my poems

Now I have a whole new outlook for poetry

The smell of roses hits my nose

The moon glows

Brightly

Songs from free will

Sung in the dark

The crowd is still

Pockets empty

A show for all to come

Everything can be done

Band on stage

Every single age

All enjoying the presence

Flocks of birds fill the sky

Everyone starts to fly

Free from confusion

Holding hands

Girl and boy

Learning what love is

Their hearts feel good

Living peacefully

Learning joyfully

Loving life like we all should

 

The Last Poem For You All

I'm hurting right now you guys.  I have put my heart out there so many times.  Almost every time it gets smashed to pieces.  I now know of three people that just passed in two days.  My dad has cancer and it hurts my heart knowing my dad's in pain and could die.  My bi-polar is on a downwards spiral.  I keep writing people poems and in return something negative happens.  I wrote my friend a poem for her to be my valentines.  She loved the poem, but then she told me someone already asked her a few hours earlier. I'm sick of being second best.  In sports, with women, picked last in elementary, never number 1.  Then I wrote a coffee shop girl a poem, I asked her how she liked it and she said that I'm fucking weird or strange.  Both poems caused me sadness in the end.  So I don't know how long it will be till I write next.  Life sucks right now.  I feel alone.  I just want to stay in my room and sleep.  I don't want to write on the internet anymore cause I don't want to affect anyone in a negative way.  So for now this will be my last poem...

Putting my heart out in the open to share

So many times I've gotten a bad glare

It hurts having my heart smashed to smitherines 

I'm sinking like a mayday submarine 

Left to right

Day or night

I do my best

But my heart gets ripped out of my chest

The pain I feel in my hearts hurt

The tears in my eyes squirt

Like little raindrops hitting the ground

No hope on earth is to be found

Brain going crazy

Feeling light headed and hazy

I just want to sleep

Forever count the sheep

Thumps in my chest pound

I can hear my hearts sound

Barely eating any food

Being in my place, who would

Leave me alone for a while

I'm done with my poetry style

No more will be shared

I feel like no one's cared

I feel stupid writing to them

I thought I gave them a jem

I was way wrong

It's been a terrible song

My father has cancer

I wish I had the answer

But I do not

I don't want to see him rot 

This is my last sad poem to you

There's nothing else I can do

It just hurts too much inside

Now I'm going to hide

Thank you to the ones who read

I no longer need to bleed

Just need to stop writing

It just causes drama or fighting

Let this last be know

Everything I wrote is not just a show

It's true, everyone

Now, I AM DONE!

Two People Passing

Falling up to the sky

Right now I cry

Two friends passed today

I just don't know what to say

Feeling confused

A little lost

Can't Focus

Feel abused

Rock solid guy

Around 6'5"

Just up and vanished

I still don't think he's finished

Friend of my cousin

Didn't know you

But I fell the sorrow

We'll be with you tomorrow

Death is to close to me lately

It's getting to me insanely 

What are the chances someone really close will die

I hope no one will have to fly

Away with their pair of wings

The God and Goddess sing

R.I.P.

Much love and comfort to everyone

The Kid Who Saved My Life (Josh G)

On October 22 2008

Was my suicide attempt date

It was attempted not commited

Because Josh instantly reacted 

I ragged on his name

When I was the one to blame

A lot of things were my actions

Just trying to get instant satisfactions

We've had epic times together

Longboarding in any weather

Josh and I will kick your ass

We'd take on any mass

I'm sorry Josh, for the things I've said

This poem is my ammend

Will you forgive a brother that loves you

Know this is true

Josh found me in a bloody mess in the bathroom

I was face to face with doom

He banged that door at the right time

Death, would have been mine

  For this I'm forever grateful

This man saved my soul

Thank you Josh G

You and I are an epic team

Sometimes I get angry

My rage gets hungry

For anything  to eat up, spit out

I get so mad and want to shout

But my apology

Thank you for my life

You saved me after I used the knife

Rushed me to the doctors who saved me

I now live free

Thank you bro

Sorry for my bad poem show

I was just angy

I was not coping

Let me say one last thing

I love you bro

To Judas Priest

Lets go sing

Love ya Josh

I apologize

Boo, I See You

Her beauty
Long, luscious, blonde hair
Body of a goddess
Piercing blue eyes
Smile that gets me going
Everything of hers is worth showing 
Only when the time is right


She speaks
"So good to see you!"
It's honestly my pleasure
This moment I will forever treasure


She kisses me on the cheek
The little boy in me wants to squeak
Out of excitement
I get slow flowing butterflies
Time stops
I'm in awe


Could we possibly ever hangout
"Of course, give me a jingle"
Man, I'm so glad I'm single


Do I even have a chance
Like when I wanted to slow dance
With the beauty
Of pure joy
My love
One day,I'll give to a girl that fits with me
My heart will deploy

My Boy Goose

It's the man of the century

Once I saw him kiss Jentry

A man who has been there for me 100 percent

Always there if I need to vent

Goose is his name

He deserves no blame

One of the best persons I know

Remember the hypnotist show

Goose, Spencer, and I are the tri-pod

First time with Quinn, who is now with God

Goose and Evan in Peter's pathfinder

Trippin hard, minds on a winder

Goose, thank you for all your advice

Hell ya, we got to see Thrice

I look up to you like a brother

I know you've got my back like no other

Ha, ha, ha, remember when you tried out for volleyball

Brough wanted you cause you're so tall

Drinking Mountain Dew's back in the day at Sam's

I can't thank you enough for going to Tim's rock jams

You are truly one of my best friends

I'm with you on this journey wherever it bends

I'd got to hell and back for you

I love ya bro, this is true

Your Filth Got You What You Deserved

Hatred fills his veins
Everyone's fault except Cain's
Ravaged Spirit full of sorrow
You'll not be seeing him tomorrow

Entering in the room, he takes your soul
Every dream, every goal
Stripped from your pure little mind
Happiness you won't be able to find

He'll rip your eyes from your skull
Now seeing Satan as your role
You're stuck in his quicksand
Sinking in, you take his hand

Laughing hysterically, he looks at you smiling
You can't stop your confused crying
He has you on his side
Drags you in chains with pride

Something just isn't right
Trying to put up a fight
You get whipped down to the ground
His voice is the only sound

You hurt him, he hurt you back
Now your in his death sack
Your fucking done for
Just a body now, no core