JUST WISH I WAS DEAD

All alone

No one answers their phone

I just want a little acknowledgment

I feel as if I'm completely absent

 

I feel like nobody cares

Talking to me, no one dares

Even though they know I'm nice

It's supposedly to much advice

Does anybody see me

Or is everyone blind and can't see

I'm in an enormous amount of pain

I feel like I'm going insane

What is left to do in life

I'll never have a chance for a wife

Let alone a girlfriend

I feel like this is the end

Lately, I just want to let go

Stop acting in the terrible show

I feel like my writings are no good

I already burned out all the wood

 

My mind is in a swirl 

Sit in my bed in a curl

Does anyone understand

I'm the leader with no one in my band

Jealous of others relationships

I just sit her eating candy and chips

I'm very unhealthy at this point

I want to relapse, eat mushrooms and smoke a joint

 

 I didn't cut for 3 months, I was doing good

Then a week ago I fucked up, did what I would

To much is on my mind

A little peace I want to find

To anyone who reads my poem

If you have friends, show them

I just want out

My mind and body is in a drought 

I'm alone guys

I have lots of cry's

This one is asking for assistance 

No more rides in the ambulance

I feel like there's nothing to live for

I just want one more big score

But I know it would be wrong

This is my sad song

Fuck I don't know what's going down

I'm getting dragged down under by Pennywise The Clown

Not much more to be said

Just wish I was dead