ME

My poems are how you can tell

If I’m happy, ok or just in a living hell

Some might be confusing

May show me abusing

Myself in terrible ways

Those are the horrific days

When I write funny stuff

It isn’t a bluff

I truly love being joyful 

But for some reason, I love being hurtful

Towards my body and mind

On my thigh is where you’ll find

The knife rape

My very own escape

See my smile

I want to be around awhile 

It’s all just ups and downs

Grins and frowns

The next poem you read

You should be able to see what I need

A laugh, smile, hug, comfort or a friend

To you all, my love I send

I Don't Want Them To Know

What happens when you get caught

Everyone you’ve fought

Don’t want anyone to know

Any part of your show

Especially those deep, dark secrets

With those terrible regrets

If they find out about the real me

They’ll never be able to see

Me the same

I take all the blame

For my actions

Even though their satisfactions

I get in life 

When I use the knife

Ya, I Cut Last Night

I’m not proud to say that

But I just sat

In my depression 

And started a session

With the knife

I was hating life

So I needed an escape

The razor rape

My thigh

I knew why

I’m feeling alone

Even with my family at home

I’m different

I’m devil sent

Always fucking up shit

I can’t take a hit

So I shred

My thigh for the blood red

Adrenalin, no more mental pain

I get a physical gain

But it goes away

The last thing I’ll say

Is this

Happiness I miss

The Sun and Moon

As the day starts to fade

There is a different shade

Of blue

The sun shines through 

White fluff

The beauty is enough

Behind the mountains 

Thousands 

Of light rays

Finishing off all days

Moon now rising

It’s surprising 

The moon beam

Hitting every seam

Every tree

From what I can see

The days and nights

Go around the world like plane flights

Never ending

Never befriending 

As I listen to a tune

I think to myself, “I love the sun and moon”

Just A Normal Day

Let me be the first to say

I’m not alright, I’m not ok

There’s just somethin about today

I sit sadly and lay

In my thoughts

While my mind rots

She left me blind

Now I can’t find

Any peace of mind

Lined

The razor to my skin

“Where have you been?”

It’s been hiding under my bed

Time to get out of my head

You know how the rest goes

“Slice,” the blood flows

Nobody ever know

Hidden under my clothes

Are my scars

Shining like stars

Trapped in my room

It’s all gloom

I’ve got this unstoppable rage

Escaping my cage

From my brain

Becoming quite insane

Tears pour out like rain

Taking the razor to my main vein

“SLASH” The job is done

Hell has already come

But here’s the real doom

My parents entered the room