The Pain Feels So Good

I’m happy and hurting inside

My feelings, I never hide

So many people cutting

Heads butting

With their parents and friends

The razor never bends

Just slits open the skin

We feel like we win

Then the sadness eventually comes back

Again we reach into the black

Grab the razorblade

Scars rarely fade

To the cutters who read

I also love to bleed

The control 

Having power over your soul

With the knife

Take away some pains of life

Really though

You know

It’s not the right way

It’s just a terrible play

Please, have a good day

Do your best not to cut, that’s all I’ll say

I love all of you who cut, I’m with you too.  Just thought I’d try to make one of you happy.

Head Case

I’ve got nowhere to go

My mind is running slow

Come to my show

Watch me fall

Get to my knees and crawl

Then stand up tall

I keep messing up bad

It makes my family sad

Then I get mad

What a head case

Always taking second place

Lets erase

His thoughts from his mind

He won’t be able to find

Any sort of mankind

Break his fingers, so he can’t write

That’s the only way he can fight

Turn off the light

He won’t be able to see

He’s got to be

Insane, probably

My Sweetheart

MMMMMM Melissa
Your pretty hair shines in the sun
Running down the beach
Your having fun
Smile as big as Texas
Holding your hand is the bestest
Being by you is like opening a present
You are angel sent
I get all gitty thinking about you
To kiss you, I’d love to do
Eyes like shooting stars
Voice like beautiful acoustic guitars
I’ll send my love your way
Under the pine trees we can play
Nothing about you makes me frown
It’s cool how around me you can act like a clown
I respect you more than any man has
Lets go boogie to some jazz
Skin so soft like a babies face
In my heart, you’ve found a place
Ahh, it feels so good knowing
Knowing your in my arms, glowing
You’ve got my full attention
Oh, I forgot to mention
I’ve fallen in love with an amazing woman
You are that perfect person

Running Blood

Blood runs out of these cuts,
The knife I used now shuts,
Cutting to get away from my emotional state,
Is cutting myself my very own fate?

Blood drips down to the bathroom floor,
Knife 1, Kenny 0 is the score,
3 inches, every single one on my wrists,
More blood comes out when I squeeze my fists.

In a depression over the beautiful one,
All I see is darkness, there is no sun
Aches in my body cause my heart is broken,
In my ear, the tempting devil has spoken.

Can’t stop, I just keep on cutting,
This addiction of mine is so cunning,
Will I still live after this next cut?
I’m getting a woozy feeling over my body and in my gut.

Starting to loose control, I fall to the ground,
Loss of hearing, there is no sound,
My cuts run deep inside my skin,
Self-mutilation is my number one sin.
I’ve gone out cold, there’s no stopping death now,
My light’s gone out, look at me, I showed you how,
Death’s messenger comes and puts his arm around my shoulder,My name is now in the committed suicide folder.

Coffee Shop

Righteous rhymes man

I know you can

Do better

My sweater

Is brown and black

Kind of ugly

I’ll take it back

What creates my rhymes

Good and bad times

Mixed up with a little insanity

Profanity

Fuck, I need it

Shit

Lost in the romance of writing

No need to be fighting

Just flows

The wind blows

In my hair

Without a care

I sit and stare

At the stars

Wishing I could write in Mars

Happy little dogs

Drinking out of coffee mugs

My friends give me hugs

Goodnight

See you in the sun light